I know. [He does. He'd never be here without Snaf, Burgie, Jay, Bill, Ack Ack, Hillbilly, all the guys of K/3/5, and he'd never try to act like that wasn't true. Never. But that's not really what he meant here, so he clarifies, looking Jimmy in the eye, but kind of wanting to look away, too.]

I mean there's not much a carbine and a side arm are gonna do against somethin' that's bigger than a house.

[He felt more like a liability than a team player, is what he means. It's hard to pull your weight when your target's that big, and even if he'd provided some covering fire, it still hadn't felt like enough. Gene's never felt so useless just being a normal human before.]

And I don't like knowin' you guys were in trouble and there wasn't anything I could do about it.